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Moved On! (:

2008-01-16T16:01:00.000+08:00

i should have had a recap 2007 while it was still 2007. but i was cooped up with work n drama to totally missed recap.
but my main thing here is to announce tt I'VE MOVED! yes once again. moved to kopi-o8.blogspot.com =D
BUT, keep this link still or ask me somehow coz i might decide one day tt the above new url doesnt sound nice n i want to change. Oops. :p

neway,moved partly coz i want to keep this blogskin and oso coz i want to leave behind the blog add. i dun rly wish to move away from e blog bout my jc life, but i know i need to set aside those memories(: sound so emotional eh?
haha, i'll most likely to be living in this 'past' of my life even while i move on. coz honestly, i've never been this happy in a school. this sad in a school. this daring in a school.
and so all i want to say is I Loved JJ, for my whole 2yrs there.
and i would nv say i regret staying in JJ even if my results is going make me sink. if it rly is bad, all i want to say is sorry to jj, sorry to myself. coz it was my own fault. blame no one.

and to recap 07.
It was the year 06S24 bonded, borrowing the strength of Love Fiesta. - esp for the girls(:
It was the year i was in a group again.
It was the year i quarrelled with kh real bad.
It was the year i started to know k n w.

It was the year i found a true gd fren. (:
It was the year i found great gfs, mel n sy. (:
It was the year i had my greatest dance partner.(:
It was the year i put in my most for an OG.
It was the year i learnt to let go.

It was the year i learnt to step back.
It was the year i toned down.
It was the year i grew back to 'quiet'.
It was the year i studied n feared.

ohya,
It was the year my class saw the birth of unique lovebirds(:

and it was the year i graduated with fellow mates.
-end of 2007-

Star Dust

2007-12-04T15:00:00.001+08:00

watched this movie straight after A's, aft physics paper..
found it super super nice.. really. It's fantasy, it's magical. Fully recommend it, esp for girls(:
This song playing is the song played then when the movie ended.. Was totally captivated by the song.. too bad it isnt in stardust soundtrack.. BUT anyway, it's called Rule the World by Take That.. Nice right? it's now my fav english song together with Numb.. yea.. superbly nice.. Enjoy the song(:

Rule the World by Take That

You light the skies up above me
A star so bright you blind me
Yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away
Don’t fade away
Ohhhh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

If wars break down, I will come for you
If angels cry oh I’ll be there for you
You saved my soul
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Ohhhhh

yea you and me we can ride on a star
if you stay with me girl
we can rule the world
yeah you and me we can light up the sky
if you stay by my side
we can rule the world

Ooooooooooooh

All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

Ohhhhhhhhhh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you
All the stars are coming out tonight
There lighting up the sky tonight
For you
For you

Prom

2007-11-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

ppl get all excited over this word.
i was one of them too until this yr. I first saw the introduction with q high spirits but the fact that no one in my class seem excited made the excitement died down completely.. i honestly think this shud be kind of a class event and the fact that it wasnt made me q sad.. (i mean the excitement to me is in going shopping with gal frens, sourcing for the stuff to wear and stuff..)so i didnt wanna go..

yet i went. Y? i was supposed to keep my fren company, who's going alone.. (but erm nothing of tt rly happened during prom..) and i probably just didnt wanna miss out on anything, as usual..

PreProm..
i was in totally no mood to be going out for prom stuff.. there's simply no 'air of prom'.. and when i think abt the money involved, i just kept telling myself to keep it to bare minimum..so i was considering a cheap dress i bot in s2 which i nv wore aft our choral n drama nite..but was wondering if it would be too casual but just left tt question there
AND SO, i totally ignored e fact tt prom was coming and even went for work in the weekend.. then mon evening came and i started to panic..i went home only to realise my heels were spoilt the moment i wore it.. too old i guess.. and i din have any accessories decided on..

Prom morning..
-my only spending n shopping was for shoes throughout, and done this morning. got pretty heels from bata. (OH and spending on manicure$5 on monday.. which i nv use in e end-.- )
-(was asked to go chalet n makeover session for e prom w denise,mich n gang,din want to spend on chalet,makeup tot cud save by doing myself. but still decided on going makeover. get an experience mah)
denise called and told me sth kian said tt got me n denise deciding to go for chalet.
-so off i went for prom preparation

Prom afternoon..(THE FUN PART1)
went for makeover at clarke quay. Had to travel all e way from clarke quay to harbour front mrt,thru vivo,on sentosa monorail, in our makeup,hairdo,dress,and SLIPPERS. yes, slippers.. we looked totally funny lar.. imagine walking along shopping centres n mrt.. HOW EMBARRASSING CAN IT GET? haha..

Prom...
by e time we got to the chalet to put our things down n go to prom venue, we were already late for 1hr.. haha..
ppl were queuing for their food and stuff.. nothing much rly happened during it lor.. just basically ppl looking at other ppl's dressing, comment, laugh or praise or envy them, take photos, do nothing. to me, tt was jc prom. ): sad it sounds eh? dunno... maybe its e mindset problem. i din enjoy myself much, unlike how i did for s4 prom or even graces camp.
but e emcee was good. i rly liked how he got e audience to laugh with all his impromptu stuff..
the pageant contest process the 'unfairly' shortlisted contestants for prom king n queen was kinda interesting..
(ps, 'unfair' coz michelle was supposed to have been in there had it not been teachers' miscommunication and refusal to do anything about it-.-) but the results of e pageant was... erm.......... no comments..
oh one more! "zoujiubian" sang!(: haah.. to my delight(:.. (tt's e jj superstar finalist btw)

tts basically all i have for prom.. if i looked happy, nah, it just fits e occasion(:

Post prom...
coz stay at chalet with a few guys from ban's class, including bel n yuanping, tog w michkian,denisehoehan,yueqi,suwen,joff, ban's class was talking abt going clubbing or pub.. me by then was dead beat mentally n legs tired from those heels n totally din wanna put on tt fake smile for prom.. so wanted to go back chalet.. if not, go back, wash up, before going for more fun.. if not just a nearby pub will do.
Ban's class left wif yq.. ppl were all gone by then..
Despite our will to go pub, it was late night with no bus inside of sentosa, and we had to travel by HEELS, yea, not foot, over HiLLS, be it to go pub or go back to chalet@siloso when we were at Amara.. unless u actually get taxi.. which is $$.. tt is equal to nothing coz gals din bring money in clutch.. n we din have much left aft e makeover.. In e end we went back to chalet on FOOT n heels.. interchanging.. mostly on foot.. coz after wearing it for hours, going up n down slopes, it's making gals so painful.. haha.. ok not rly for denise n mich coz theirs were flats n courtshoes..
we met with ban,yq,bel and 2others staying over at e chalet along e way.. think they din go pub in e end lor.. then yea, we were walking n chatting n laughing til we reached chalet finally.
id probably have to thank bel, he might not have known but he actually comforted me wif simply chatting w me abt nothing related while i was feeling down during the night..
(THE FUN PART2)
neway, we went into a pub right opposite to disturb em 15mins b4 closure n went up to chalet.. washed up.. yep(: fresh n clean..
tt night, zhixiong was asleep n awoken by ban.. and he was talking crap.. wat aircon 'kai ling du' (at zero degree celsius), and sang jay's "pi jiu shang shen ti" (beer bad for health) song.. LOL.. haha.. yuanping came back drunk from clubbing.. had to puke.. and was constantly asking for warm water.. and was saying hot when it was freaking cold.. then ban tried to poke fun by letting him drink beer from straw instead of warm water he asked for, and i dun tink he could tell e difference.. LOL... haha.. it was q funny..
at chalet, we played bridge, watch soccer, slept.. i was sharing bedsheet with suwen on carpet grd right below aircon, and along e walkway.. freaking cold.. and i cudnt sleep e whole night.. coz e first time i was abt to fall into deep sleep, sb wanted to cross n totally stepped over me.. i knew i wud block e way if i slept like log there, so din rly sleep. at night, cud hear the different snores, see different ppl waking up at diff time to try to cross me.. haha.. n i'll always have to shift to let em pass.. since i'm awake anyway.. and i had FEETS above me tt will knock down on me from above.. so i din rly sleep haha..

Advertising time(:

2007-10-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

oh wells, since denise has started trying to make business, as a friend, how can i not help to advertise?
so, PPL INTERESTED in KOREAN or HK fashionable clothes, do visit this website below!
forhers.blogspot.com

the results...

2007-09-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

first things first, YES exam is finally over, but one more's coming our way in 4wks time..
no matter wat, gd news, i passed physics!!! but tt was a paper i shud hav gotten b according to gary chan..
bad news,i failed chem yet again.. v badly.. sigh.. my most hopeful subject..but wat's over is over(: guess what matters is this last month(:
anyway, i had fun with my class girls, going to gym together and then singing for 5hrs at kbox!
am really v glad tt my class has bonded while we are ending our years in jc..like i rly had contact with almost each n every member of the class, in different ways.. yep.. these few days, im thinking that i'm starting to know more abt ppl i've nv really known, and understand some of them(: guess i'll cherish this class q alot..^^ ~o6s24(:

Counting down...

2007-09-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

it's 2 more paper to go before prelims end!!!! (: 2 mcq paper somemore.. ^^ but AnYway, today's maths was a total disaster.. the first section of the paper, i can totally say the most marks i can get is erm 1m out of 40? hah..sigh.. den so u shud tink im banking on the 2nd section.. yea, i am, but i guess i can only get the most 50 out of 60 and, well, tt is a just pass for tt whole paper :] And to think i was hoping to use this paper to save my prev paper? hah, oh well, just gonna disappoint my tchrs again.. but hopefully i can do well for chem..the rest, im sorry to all my tchrs, for disappointing u yet again.. :x yep yep..

2part entry

2007-09-17T16:54:00.000+08:00

part1-pardon my language for this post coz it's gonna be the most vulagr entry ever.. freaking idiot! **** today i just knew sth tt if i dun get it off my chest, i seriously cant continue doig anything properly.. the more i tink of it, the more i tink it's either u can act very well, or u r just a freaking liar. it's been so long and i've pardoned you for so many offending things ive heard of and now, i seriously cannot take it.. to have heard that, that was the limit! i swear i'm not gonna forgive and forget ur sins. i swear to erase you! u SUCK, hypocrite! i'm not gonna care even if i'm sinning right now, coz i believe all my previous benevolence is more than enough to offset this sin. you immature freak! has it ever dawned on you that u r tarnishing ppls' image just to make yourself look gd? oh, i guess, it doesnt matter to you.u've always been that selfish freak, tt totless idiot. and i guess i'll end here, coz it's not worth to dedicate an entry just for you. may y suffer under the 18th lvl of hell for infinity lives(:

part2- oh wells, all i can say is this few days have been my unlucky days.. maybe it's wat i have to go through after i'm 18. maybe im just suffering in exchange for hopeful better results. maybe, it's just me. whatever it is, i tink today has been the worst 'bad luck' event. in e morning, i was running late for sch n i had to miss the bus. so i walked all the way til the mrt only to find my bag dripping wet. i opened it and guess what, in my bag was a big pool of water -.- you can almost breed fish in it-.- wats worst? to have all my notes & calculator & pencil case all in there. so i had near 'dissolving' papers, smudged inks for my handwritten notes, wet book, and totally wet pencil case. it even seeped to all other compartments. thank gdness my calculator was still working fine. if not i cud just forget abt going for exams. e thing was, i was at such a crowded place, i couldnt just handle e problem by pouring all the water out of the bag. tt wud have been embarrassing.. so i just threw all e tissue i had in to absorb.. AND thank gdness when i boarded the bus, the bag only continued to drip 3 small drops and stopped.. so i guess nobody rly noticed.. PHEW.. (: yep... now, going bck to mug^^

Hoobastank - The Reason

2007-08-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

Always loved this song, but nv had rmbed to get it online, until today when i watched on youtube this video of hana yori dango with the reason music-->

Song: Hoobastank - The Reason

Song provided by song2play.com

a video of Perfect timing of perfect music for perfect anime of perfect quality<3

Slacking =X

2007-07-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

ok, i've finally succuumb to temptations and blogging here :X
actually had more to write abt yesterday.. was totally pissed off and affected by those tactless ppl..(like don't i have a right to simply have male close frens? not like i dont have close girl-friends right? zzz)
today, right opposite!(: haha, happy tt i went to watch harry potter FINALLY(: and get to catch up with old friend^^ but on the down side, tt means not studying, wasting precious time on social rather than education.. sigh.. guilty.. and worse, came home slacking, and now, blogging..
yep guess wat? i'm here to rave all abt harry potter! abit lagg though, heh.. but tt's coz i haven read prisoner of azkaban, order of phoenix,and rest tt follows... any willing to lend me?^^ but must first warn whichever good Samaritan that i'm a honestly slow reader. so be ready to lend me for a month =X
ok, so back to topic, i watched the movie only to realise how rowling is actually starting to add a little more depth to it.. or at least Obvious themes in the story.. like indirectly suggest problems to education systems in countries. and also deal with political struggle. and theme of fear. to me, having not read the book, i tink this portion of harrypotter is starting to join the previous series together.. i mean not like 1,2,3 don't link, but this book, if following the movie, seems to 'make reference' to all the past books, showing how ALL the characters have grown over the series to mature more and start facing greater problems. MAYbe it's just the movie - how the director put in scenes from all the previous movies. Like it totally made me see the growth of all the characters, of course esp hermione, harry and ron.
but certain parts that i dun like abt the movie is those deliberate attempts to scare the audience unnecessarily. q irritating.. then also coz the flow of story is not there.. everything is v abrupt. tink many share this view i guess. anyway, overall, tink i enjoyed e movie no matter wat.. since b4 i went, many who read the book advise me not to watch, perhaps there was a lowered expectations from me.. so yep, i tink it was not bad (:
btw, lurving snape~ though he died in e end T.T
ok GO STUDY le!

The Official 'Retirement'

2007-05-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

Just one year back, I was watching the much respected councillors step down in replacement with my peers. Inside me was a feeling of loss, coz as many agreed upon, that our peers seem to pale in comparison to our snrs.. Yet, at the same time, there was feeling of joy for fellow level mates to be taking up the positions.
Still rmb seeing the j2 councillors being told to take off their badges, the look on almost all of them was sorrow, and when they were wearing blazers for the j1s, i was tearing together with the snrs. But before i know it, i was cheering ever so happily for out batch of councillors.
This year, everything feels so different. We entered lt5 with a very different mood. No longer the excitement, nor the noob-ness. All i can think of is that my peers are stepping down. While one year appears to be fast, many things have also happened in this very same year. In this one year, I got to interact with almost all of these councillors and worked with them. (Besides, before i went for the investiture, i wrote a few notes for few of them, one of which reminded me of the whole process of dilemma to be in council, training, and getting pro.)
It struck me when all these councillors sat before us on stage, that i've developed friendship with them unknowingly, worked together with them for countless projects. We laughed together, strived together. They were the ones who helped us whenever we needed it, they were the ones supporting the whole sch together. Now, they are stepping down. They are no longer gonna be the pillars we rely on. They have come a long way, from doubtful to very trusted by all of us here.. All these just simply made me cry so bad.. Can we rely on the j1s? we have become over-reliant on these peers unknowingly that w/o them, we feel lost and loss and start questioning the new batch.
BUT, if our batch can do it, their batch can do it too and also for the following batches. Hopefully :]

To 26th councillors, youall are really FABULOUS. Really thank youall for all the effort youall have put in to work with us, and for the sch! Rawk on forever... youall are forever da-Best in our hearts!
and for now, jiayou for A's!

Just Keep Swimming

2007-04-29T18:26:00.000+08:00

I met my swimming coach! wahah! After four years of not being in touch with him, i miss him lors! haha,ever since both e boonlay swimming complex n e one at tj was closed down, and i've 'graduated' under him, i havent seen him.. recently, i was finally back in the swimming pool, doing laps thanks to aiting, and was so hoping i'd get to see him again. Especially after the first session, seeing ppl in swimming lessons with their pyjamas, ppl swimmng backstroke, ppl diving, while i wasn't. I miss swimming with yixuan and this unknown person. I miss listening to the instructions of 'Mr Leong'. I miss being able to swim laps without feeling tired. I miss everything!
Yesterday, I saw him! He was teaching beginners how to swim and all the nostalgia came to me.. He's just so different in his teaching that you can't miss him when he teaches! haha.. He taught the same way as he did in the past..As i watched him teach, i rmb frequently sitting by the side of the pool to listen to him talk, remember how he corrects our legs, how he demonstrates, how he point to you when u make a mistake.. how gentle his voice always was.. i miss him! wanna go back to his lessons..
hmmm.. SWIM, just keep swimming(:

Subconscious mind analysis

2007-04-22T23:56:00.001+08:00

Yeow, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your personal growth

On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to becoming a better person. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about improving your situation in life have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.

You may feel stuck or trapped in your life. Perhaps you wish you had more interests or skills, or that you had more time and energy to devote to that ongoing internal growth.

Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.

May uall be blissful always(:

2007-04-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

oh wells, guess i talked abt some of my frens being attached,or near attach, some breaking up a month ago.. right now, am talking to a friend whom id tink is still in q a bliss (:
although not in a really happy mood aft an msn meeting i just had where somehow ppl are just not cooperating.. not to say ive no wrong.. probably being giving too much opinions oso.. but aiya.. i dunno lar.. not main pt(:
anyway, yea, i feel happy for my fren, so much tt all the '-ve enegy' is not really in me (: more of the +ve, since she found happiness.. haha.. got q some update from her, though the rship is still at tt stage.. but i mean he's so sweet lar!!!! wah.. all guys shud learn from him.. he's v nice to her, n definitely not a 'fisherman'. he's in army now, but will msg her almost everynight.. (he just sent her a gdnight^^) hah.. she was telling me how he was out with camp frens but had to return at a certain time.. she wanted a yam pie and he said he had just enough time for him to send one to her house frm somewhere near camp before going bck to camp.. SO SWEET can! n he msged her when she said he was crazy but sweet, he said sth like wonder when she'll b crazy enuff to let him do crazy stuff like tt..OMG.. i'll melt lar! haha.. she has melted already lor.. Plus, she's definitely not someone who would actually be talking abt all those love stuff but she omg has been for ard a yr by now.. omg can! haha.. tts y im v happy for her.. v v v.. (hope she dun kill me for putting the story here =x but i nv say who, where, what right? heh den again, if she doesnt want it up, i'll make sure it wun be here the minute i know she dn want it here(: ) guys, pls learn more abt sweetness(:
ohya, im happy coz i tink of other sweet frens.. wondering hows their updates.. haven heard from them for long le(: hope to see them soon(:

CSL camp (:

2007-04-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

hah, hmm, just had a last camp ehz? i wonder how many last camp would i have.. but no lar, tis one, it's different. im not a fac, not a organiser, just a participating snr and gamemaster.. tink its counted q a first time im doing tis job bah :] but, err, ok lar.. wun say i was gd lar, coz i honestly tink i wasnt.. goes to show i cant be an emcee.. hah.. but hoped they enjoyed themselves for e game still(: coz its no matter how boring, our effort.. and for my grp, guess they loved the marker game most bah and i tink i enjoyed it when i trial it before e game..hah(: but actually i was looking fwd to the blindfold form shape one more.. dunno leh.. both games were like ny camp games, but i prefer e form shape one(: tink its coz it was a larger grp for ny bah..tink it was the whole class if im not wrong.. big grp harder to form mah, isnt it? hah.. i dunno lar.. but i tink i enjoyed tt one alot.. but tink they dun rly like leh =x partly oso coz i only did one shape bah.. hehh.. coz nxt grp keep coming, so of course we should leave asap..

but this batch of csl will be better than us. personal thought but i tink is general consensus. partly coz its voluntary.. another part is they are bonded lo.. at least til now, they seem bonded and rather capable and definitely more towards the ogl/shadow side.. which is both a gd ting and bad lar.. shall redo this entry soon.. have q alot to say and a few photos n videos to put up (hopefully)

night(:

This is wat i should be(:

2007-03-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

hmm, looking at myself after the outing.. seem to have found the new focus in life. But i won't say it's coz of the outing, but more of ermm, i dunno.. learning to see things tt ive never known how to appreciate ^-^ or maybe, it just happened at the right time right now, such that it enables me to move on.. (: sound so emo right? hah..
but it's just some reflection i was doing on my way home larz^^ i mean i found joy in completing my work (: hah, actually i always did when i really do Do my work.. but how often is that? yep^^ but for me to now see work as top priority together with some fun, work seem to appear more in my life right now And, i'd definitely say its a good start(: though its a late start.. ^^
yesterday, or should i say today morning, i completed the monthlyassignmt and tutorial within 2hrs(: although i wun count the tut complete, but it was an achievement.. and although i had still done it at the last minute, but i did it! it made me so proud of myself(: and this sense of achievement, i hope, would last till 'at least' Alvls.. (:
to quote my 'idol' (for now at least=D), "i want to conquer, to surpass" wahahah, with that, it lasted him the whole yr, and got those unbelievable As in his results.. i mean its zd leh! wahah.. so he's my role model for now(:
"I WANT TO BE, THE BEST THAT I CAN BE~"
anyway, i was saying, yea, reflections on my way home.. was thinking, isn't it better now that i've stepped back? and so why related to the outing? i'd say it's the class tt RLY led me out of the 'wrong' path, much as ive decided before that.. yep.. the class let me saw stuff in a new light, brought me back into studies further(: though was tempted to go bck into Tt path, i knew exactly where it would land me, and besides, another path seems brighter mah..(thanks to all of s24) (: it would lead me a long n happier way^^ StuDy! wahah..
"PLUS ULTRA LEADS US FARTHER,UNTIL WE ARE THE BEST~"
hehheh, shall do some propaganda on myself more from now on^-^

HAPPY BDAY SQUID n JINGWEN!

2007-03-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

hope uall had an enjoyable day! coz i did too^^ happy bday!
neway, so here's a toast for these two whose bday falls on the same day! wahha.. though u2 may not know each other, but yepyep, i'll do a virtual intro here, though i dun tink jw wud see it! wahah, just for the fun of it=D
squid, this is jingwen, jingwen, this is shermaine or u can call her squid(which is apparently a more suitable name for a gigantic mini squid like her^^). s,jw is my camper while jw,s is my snr aka j3 this yr..
wahaha, squid's getting old ehz?
err, ok a lame ting i just cooked up.. IGNORE me..
guess it's time for medicine again.. =X '.'

ANYWAY, happy bday squid! wanted to dedicate a page for u but i guess u're already everywhere on my blog, so u need no more 'tribute's :p just hoped to tell u tt if u r still waiting for any mail, err, dun wait anymore..hehheh.. coz rmb the ADORABLE stuff i wanted to post u? erm, the postman kinda ask me to get out after i spent the whole day squeezing myself into the postbox.. -.- yea, tt was wat happend(: wahha.. jk.. sheesh, i tink im inheriting ur lame-ness.. but ya, dun wait.. maybe u cud give me some hint on ur bday prezz instead(: but ure definitely in for a surprise, tts for sure^^

btw, Gwen, HaPpY belated bDaY if u r reading =D dun be disappointed tt ppl din celebrate le ok? SMILE(: show ur sweetness^^ we always have the nxt yr^o^ but maybe by nxt yr, u dun need us anymore ^.^ happy bday!!! muacks~

CLASS OUTING!!! (:

2007-03-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

wahahaha! my best class outing yet(: ok, err, or maybe 2nd best ^^ but its e first time s24 ppl are out n we had such a fun time!! (: haha.. at least i did^^v haha..
so they met for a movie (supposedly mr bean).. but poor me trying to save up so i only joined them for dinner..plus, not rly interested in mr bean lar=X so i expected e movie to end at ard 4+ 5+ but i waited n waited for them to msg me aft e movie ended.. til 530, the msg still didnt come.. so i tot pp might have forgotten le..T.T but i was wrong! (: wahha, at 650pm, my long awaited msg came n i reached dere at lyk 730.. (cud have reached much earlier had i not waited for the super long wait 154)
so when i reached, they were finishing their kfc le.. plus e queue was so long, so i din buy.. but kope a little bit of food here n dere ^^ and survived on my fav bubbletea(: TheN i almost tot they were gonna leave aft dinner, which appeared q likely frm their actions.. thank gdness they didnt coz that would be like ard 15min aft i arrived.. hehheh.. the guys intended to go pool.. which made my hands itch for some..n shhui wanted to go.. but i hesitated to go coz wat if they are all pros =X so in e end, all of them went, so i tagged along n joined the game^^ since some of us were q noob like me,so kena laugh oso have companion mah(; hhehh.. so wat happened was i took over elaine's game,team with shhui, den i tag team with kian and we won, so we moved over to play with ben n wenwei.. this time i tag team with ben n tink we played 3 rounds.. still rmb e 2nd game i shot in e wrong ball lar coz i was playing stripe all along, suddenly change to solid.. hah..

neway, the 3rd game is e focus! wahha, by 3rd game, i warmed up! hah.. tink last few rounds got in e most 2 balls per game, if not none^_^ n all is q easy shot i tink.. last game suddenly i shot in 2 continuously! ^^v hah, surprise them, esp ww =D hmmph,keep saying i wun get in lor... BUT e CLASSIC moment was e last ball! e black ball! wahah! kian was asking ww to trap the whiteball coz they had 2 stripes left near e whiteball.. in e end, ww failed! and the white ball was near e middle breadth-wise(a little to e left) at one end.. den e black ball was at another end a little to the right from e middle. and they were saying, "aiya, nvm, its suanwoo anyway" -.- den ww added, if i cud get in with the left pocket, he wud treat me a meal.. -.- but of course i rejected it right away(: i'd rather get in e black ball! bu yao bei kan bian! hah! and i tried and I DID IT! ^^ they were all stunned =D HAH! n according to one of them, our whole class from both tables were looking(: wahhaha!!! tt feeling of proving them wrong is so SHUANG can! wahahaha ^0^ hah(: ww, see my prowess!hai gan kan bian wo mah? (: lol..
this outing to be is e most memorable one i guess.. ok, either on par or second to one of our p6 outing at sentosa(: but is e most special pool session i ever had! hah, coz ive nv seen a grp so loud n noisy when playing pool b4.. of course i joined in to produce noise pollution w em too(: esp tt ending game! wahah.. but was hoping to play another round coz i finally gained momentum.. but it would have been ex.. heh.. oh ya, its also e outing tt i spent the least! 4 bucks in total only! wahhah! ^^v 06s24 is SO rawking my world!

Happy Bday Jasmine, Amy, Fang Yong

2007-03-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, today, went jasmine's house for bbq to celebrate her bday.. largest number of og ppl went lo.. Finally not only the usual few lor.. (:
jasmine's family can cook real well, id say.. all the food are soooo nice(: esp the ngo hiang and the drinks(: can tell lar, coz i kept eating n drinking tt e whole day.. think i survived on tt for e whole dinner lo.. i din rly eat anything else.. not even a full satay.. yep.. but it was a nice bbq =D she invited q a few grps of different ppl(: got to know some other jj ppl dere(:

yepyep.. now its of nothing related to that le.. i was tinking, like hmm.. shud i have went for e mayday ting n reach late instead? i rly wonder.. like go dere only to be upset, den i saw no pt in reaching tt early lar..i could have finished e video too lo.. but err, dun rly wanna touch it le.. like finish a part of it, already so much time n energy gone le.. more is gonna make me not study.. now id rather be studying than doing tt lo.. anyway, ya, wasnt in a gd mood at all lar, as time went by there.. so i can only say SORRY Benjamin (og10de) for being so harsh on u just now.. wasnt in a gd mood n u were so 'playful', so i got v pissed off..

hmm,from this i realised i have a rly good mask on myself all these yrs.. esp for recent yrs bah.. like however upset i am, i would still put up tt smile, still keep the enthusiasm.. like ppl can nv rly tell when im upset lor.. sometimes even im in shock at e rate i can change my face lar..
esp tt day, when i got so affected by a statement, it was only tt short moment tt i couldnt force back the smile.. but within few seconds, i put tt smile on and continued.. the best ting was coz i left e grp tt affected me and i totally threw it to e back of my mind.. though yea, its still in my subconcious but consciously i totally forgot abt it and was laughing.. all until i reached home and somehow, the comment just came back to my head unknowingly.. and then that was when my mask was taken off.. and i rly expressed to myself how i rly felt..
erm,a bit random lar, but just a record of my thoughts..

Orientation 02 '07

2007-03-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

oh well, its no longer a camp tt involves me.. but i went visit i guess everyday bah.. yep.. my intention was just to be an onlooker, look at how ive been for the past one yr.. but then together with the other j2s, as we looked at em, all i can say is they need more help than mere looking on.. i guess some of them might retort, 'y do we need help?!' erm, honestly, they were lacking certain things lar.. like bringing campers from a place to another, u shud require 2 ogl at least, one in front one behindorwalking ard em to ensure no one goes missing..den take attendance regularly.. den bring campers on to cheer.. these kinda small stuff like nobody took note.. tts y end up with so many missing ppl bah =x i dunno oso.. den they toking n playing among themselves all e time.. den they a little then show in front of campers they v tired.. tink the worst ting is some just look at u, give u e "who are u" look and heck care u when u tried to advise them.. -.- ya lor, all of us had sth to say abt them..
basically, they were more like campers than ogls.. mabbe we should give them the words of nattaporn: "youall are no longer campers, uall are ogls!" i mean they still look at us as if we are of different lvl wif em, when we should all be on the same lvl of ogl by now!
Camp day 1, most of e j2s there were q disturbed by the poor performance lar, so we wrote a note to give our comments on the ogls.. which turned out to be a sleeping chant i guess, since ppl r usually half asleep at debrief unless being waken up by a fright or sth.. yep..
After day1, i promised myself tt i'll step backwards and be the real onlooker n enjoy myself.. guess i really did tis time(: and besides, tink they were much better in day2.. yep(: hopefully its not coz i cudnt tell coz i didnt involve myself.. yep, think they were GreaT! ^^ gd improvemt lo =D
then day3, nothing much lar, its a slack day.. so i nv go observe them.. slacking at ln most of e time.. if not go listen debrief, sit ard the family spots chatting.. yep, tts all i did (: eweb, i nv go see at all.. coz i tink its a private ting, so shud let em do it w/o feeling stressed up or distracted by anyting:]
so yep, it oso goes to show e process of me letting go bah.. how i became less n less involved.. (:
Actually....
a handful of them are rly SUPER good ogls.. den some need abit of improvement only(: yepyep..mainly f1 n f3 the ogls are all not bad bah(: f2 de oso have gd ones.. but the rest,doesnt mean they are no gd lar, but haven realised their potential yet.. take f2 de for eg, my jnr is gd(: at least from wat ive seen lar(: den err, f3 de got 2 rly caught my eye de.. both ard my ht or shorter wan(no offence, but only way to describe) yep, but they were gd.. jasmine oso! haha.. rly tink she rox lar.. nv experienced jj camp as camper can do so well as ogl arh, she rly rock lor.. den f1, aiya, junhao n weichuan lo.. the rest din rly catch my eye lar.. partly coz they my camper oso(: yepyeyp, tts all.. (: those not mentioned, some i tink is gd oso de(: but nv really rmb.. cant see all de mah=D
all in all, they were gd ogls still lar(:

i'm out? and As

2007-03-03T18:02:00.000+08:00

Oh wells, yesterday was e start of ogl camp for e new batch of ogls..
i've officially been promoted to grandogl i guess.. but Nooo i dont want to..T.T It seems like ive gotten hang of the momentum and i really dont wish to get out of it.. but i have to face it, im out. yes, i am. Sigh. And i have to face the A levels very soon. Very Soon.
So yesterday night, me and a few others were staying ard for their camp. and the very first time they were cheering at the camp after their ice breakers, all of us were like.. -.- tts v soft can? the spirit was totally not there lar..
but we just followed on to see how it goes.. while they ate, we were in e hall doing crazy stuff.. haha, dance, play, laugh.. as the usual of us as snrs now.. hah..then the shadows saved us some food for dinner! i was so touched can.. hah.. (was thinking then if they initiated it or was given hints by e council de..) hmm,i wonder.. but no matter wat, they still specially brought e food from lt2n3 there to us at the canteen! this guy went to n fro to bring plates, then dessert, and even wanted drinks..SO nice can... hah..
ok nxt was songsinging.. not bad lar, by then they were better le.. q bonded as a whole i guess.. not v sure oso too dark to see wat's happening.. but erm, its more of the 'heads' are the one with problem.. the A (a-shall-not-be-named) leading the songs was errrrm.. guess a was trying to do it the leow way,or u could even say the usual rara yet emotional way, but errr, it was comical.. hah..
by the end of night games,their volume of cheers was GreaT! Thats wat i call ogl camp! haha.. but of course it can always be better(: esp for f1n2..f3 got tommy-gal-version, plus i guess loads of high ppl, so its like q power, but f1n2 oso not bad still(: They were all great lar(: hah.. but deres sth tt was bugging me still..
den i knew exactly wat it was when mr ng spoke. its e leow inspiring talk on wat ogl was..those words tt are still deeply etched in my minds.. words i would sometimes think back abt and nod my head in agreement abt wat he had said then.. be it feelings, or experience..only were u a guo lai ren can u understand fully wat it means.. yep.. it brings loads of nostalgia.. anyway, i was at ease as i listened to mr ng.. my idol can! haha.. like many have said,mr ng is an even better speaker leow and ive always agreed(: haha.. but both are powerful lar.. anyhow, mr ng talked abt ogl as going the extra mile for others.. n he gave a v clear eg.. it inspired me once again, and i was reflecting myself.. i hoped i did it ALL e time=X but i wonder, have i? No matter wat, hoped e ogls caught wat he was saying n not dozing off.. coz i guess tts e most impt ting of e whole ogl camp..
anyway, while mr ng was talking, emily was toking to me abt e comparison of 02 06 ogls vs 01 07 ogls vs 02 07.. not trying to praise anybody here but i still tink 02 06 was e best.. not because we r gd but our ogl camp was good. rly.. its e most 'urgent' camp id say.. then followed by 02 07 den last is 01 07 lo.. guess emily agreed 01 07 was the weaker one in comparison..
YEP, so that was abt all to ogl camp day1 i crashed.. could go home happily aft tt since i know tt they were all given the inspiring talk(: haha..

Oh ya, forgot abt the A's.. wahha, u know wat, Zongda got 3As! and B for gp.. OMG! not anybody but zd!! wahahaha.. i mean, i tot he's e slackest of my 4ogls can! to tink i smsed them 4 wishing em gd luck and saying if they get straight As must treat us AND he replied"hah.nervous lah. i hope i can teat u all man. hah" AND when i saw him in e hall, he was smiling so widely, baring all his teeth and all tt i bet if he tried to stretch his smile an mm more, his face is going to crack.. Wahaha, and his first words to me was "i can treat uall already".. i was so shocked lar.. haha.. den he was like "want to see my results?" AND all i saw was AAA B!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG! whaahha.. i was smiling as crazy as he was i tink.. haha.. happy for him lor.. but nv expected it to come from him.. den he was so zhuai throughout lar! hahaa... no lar.. just v happy.. wahah..
but then again, not all ppl scored tt well..the rest of the snrs i know of, their results are mostly q err, so so lar.. =x tink i'll be ard tt or even worse =/ and we are counted lousy still lar.. ppl's As are counted by percentage but ours is...errr... so i wonder how i'll be like nxt yr this time.. and i tot abt it and i was tinking, hmm, probably its time for me to study.. esp when i looked at e scores for GP which is many's main concern, i was worried.. we only had 87% of pass for gp if i din rmb wrongly.. q scary lar.. imagine... esp when im wanting to get an A in it.. Praying hard i can get it lar.. Must WORK HARD FOR GP! yep.. tts all.. btw, haven gotten a chance to tok to squid.. shall do so soon(: CHEER UP SQUID(:

Random!^^ - metamorphosis of j1 to j2 lifestyle part 1

2007-02-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

Yayy! haha, just feel like posting something(: but actually got not much to say anyway..
only can announce, YAY! my re-tests are finally over!! 2 in a row can.. left me sleepless for a couple of nights already.. i mean who has tests right aft the new yr break?! haha.. new yr, no time to study, n slp late most of e time mah.. ok lar, i did have time to play, watch hanakimi^^, but i mean its festive season! who's in e mood.. but i seriously did try and completed part of the studies.. yea.. but not enough definitely.. heh.. so i had to sleep late for my wed n thur to mugg.. sobb.. rly super tired can.. but at least it's all over! and its time to prepare for RE-retest! haha.. yea, hope not, but the chances are high..

but i guess the 2 retests did change my mood q a bit.. i feel more settled down now than before.. rly.. im starting to let go of my j1 lifestyle.. i mean for the wed n thurs aft e new yr break, i was less attached to the og, more into my studies, and would rather not linger ard sch, but study.. i was still slightly with my og, Am still trying to watch hana kimi on youtube, and wanting to do other stuff outside studies, but i did control and limit myself.. i mean like a reason i failed my chem n phy test in e first place was i didnt study during e start of sch.. like i knew i had test, but i simply refused to study, just put it aside n went playing.. yea, but now, im seeing myself settled.. i was worried, i was studying.. and these few mornings, when i told myself the prev night tt id wake up early to study, i REally woke up! its been so long since i ever wake up so easily.. for the past month, i had to pull myself out of bed even aft my usual wakeup time, even though i tried to wake myself up earlier using 4 alarms of timings..

SO to have really woken up slightly earlier than wake up time is rly an achievement! im starting to settle.. (:
this is a gd thing man.. ive reached the 2nd stage of settling down(:
1st was w/drawing myself frm ogl-related stuff. I saw myself looking at the j1s planning comm running abt n cheering for dry run as lame.. (dun feel insulted ppl,coz one day u'll prob see it too) yea.. i mean i was in e canteen n i saw a big grp rushing out of the pd staircase zooming off elsewhere, cheer, and later zooming back up.. and all i felt was -.-lll i nv tot i'd view it like tt..coz not even half a yr ago, i was doing tt too... and i did tt a thousand times in j1.. THeN, looking at j2s staring at us running past while they study, i felt proud of myself in some ways.. like i got to be enjoying while u study.. but NoW, looking back, i bet snrs felt e same way as i am now tt e j1s appeared rather lame.. yea.. n i cant believe i had been doing tt.. but i know if i need to do tt again in jj, i would do the same thing. but, i'll feel another thing.

2nd. starting to sit down n study. though right now aft e tests, im playing a little,yet my mind is still at wanting to complete my hw. Which is a GreAT sTaRt (: hopefully by Mar, i'll be fully settled.. which is in a few days time(:

Hana Kimi <3

2007-02-22T18:01:00.000+08:00

Shall talk about it while waiting for it to load at youtube.. omg! its freaking addictive can! Loving it! its PLOT is super nice! so funky and funny.. and the acting! whoa it rocks man! haha, esp the scenes at sch clinic.. haha! mei tian lao shi rox! haha, it's seriously comical lar.. den of course another plus point is the actors are all so shuai~ haha..

while everyone is crazy over wuzun, im crazy over Tang YuZe!! haha.. if uall dunno who im talking abt, it's e NaN xue zhang (e snr inchargeof their hostel) he's so shuai! he's only e 2nd star tt im crazy over can.. (not counting band inside stars.. if not mayday is e best^^) 1st is this guy now probably in his 50s or more.. Matt Dillon!! he acted in The Outsiders movie as my fav character in e bk, Dallas Winston(: then recently acted in Herbie Fully Loaded as the car dealer i tink..still having his shuainess bah, though alot older, n out of shape.. he's still my craze(: i mean its cool in a way to see him having grown old but still having tt certain look in him(:

but anyway,im addicted to Hana Kimi! hah, love it! so much tt guess wat? im watching it right here at Firefly in sch.. hehhehhehz(: lalala, coz cant watch at home mah >.< but yep, im so loving this show man! ok go back watch le.. HANA KIMI ROX! tang yu ze rox! wu zun rox! wang dong cheng rox! Dr Mei rox! Ella rox! haha.. lalala.. aiya, the original comic artist rox! <3
ps, feilunhai rox too(: the best 'looks' boyband ever^^ but mayday rox the most! (:

Happy Chinese New Year(X

2007-02-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

haha, had a funny new yr celeb.. we were let off extraordinarily early, so i was rather lost at first.. den meiting called me to go bck rulang(: so we went back! then along e way to rulang, we saw this jj guy walking.. then we were trying to figure out who.. but he was so far in front.. so we tried to make him turn back.. i called out "jj de!" hah, den no response.. ppl across the road were the ones tt turned instead.. heh^^ then we gain speed to catch up with him.. den i tried 'zhiwei!' coz i tink it's him.. and it really was! haha.. den apparently he was on his way home.. den we invited him to visit our pri sch only to turn out tt they were having sports day today, so none was in e sch-.- sian~ so we were left v lost.. too early to be going home either..
e 3 of us, decided to go to meiji factory! haha.. only to realise from huiying tt meiji dun open at 9+-.- SiANz~ so at e lakeside busstop, we decided to take whatever the nxt bus is and go where ever it takes us.. we ended up standing at the busstop analysing which bus goes where.. coz nxt bus tt came along was 240.. den since we wud end up back here, so we din take.. then 180 came.. still, we din move..wahhalol.. another threesome of jcians were there too.. they also stayed ard for q long before walking off towards jp.. whaahha.. i bet they were as lost as we were... den we decided to go je imm^^ and we took e train instead..
on our way to imm,it was q weird.. coz actually i dun tink meiting n zhiwei knows each other bah.. and i noe them coz of V different reasons.. one is a pri sch mate, one is F1 oglmate.. hah.. so like i talk to one, e other is not related..haha..summore coz i converse with meiting in mandarin, but zhiwei in eng.. so ive been like trying to switch lang all e time while i talk to either.. haha.. but somehow we end up talking tog too lar.. hah, i was talking abt how i knew zhiwei thru a Mint Icecream, then end up meiting n zhiwei gang up to suan me-.- den this lady asked us in mandarin for CPF building, gong zi jing blah de lar, den zhiwei dio stunnned.. hah.. then it started us talking abt conversing in mandarin vs english.. tts when i was telling them how i had to speak diff lang to them.. n they tell me its gd training for me to jing tong shuang yu.. -.-
but thru e conver then i realise tt bp is mandarin-speaking n tt while i tink jj is also mandarin speaking, zhiwei thinks its english speaking.. mabbe its e arts n sci difference bah.. but im not sure abt tt either.. yep..

ANYWAY, we reached imm to find tt most shops werent open..so we went daiso to shop (my idea^^) but they appear to be following me ard oni-.- so we went Bagus to eat, at 10am?! yea.. so gals were eating fruits while zw was enjoying his meal.. then after tt, some shops were open liao, so we were walking ard for e sake of wasting time.. i bot more cross stitch there though(: den i saw the accessories shop(forgot name) tt pp was saying having 75% off.. so i darted in, aft being a little apologetic to e guy as i walked in.. hah, he joined in to looking at e earrings though.. hah.. i realised its only this one column selling stuff at 2.50 when it used to be priced at 10.. but e stuff there were, erm, not nice.. unlike those at the usual 10bucks.. so we went out.. then later we came across Aries.. haha.. and i was joking abt going into Aries, but zw was joking tt ok lar, my horoscope, i dun mind.. so we rly went in.. then zw was like omg, ok i go giordano(beside).. hah.. so as i was looking ard, poor zw came back, like patrolling right outside of aries..walking from one end to e other and back to one end..hahlol.. so we went out instead of i continuing to shop.. hah..
den we were lost at e bus interchange again..but i wanted bubble tea, so we tried jec.. only to realise tt i was starting to feel hungry and so we went foodcourt to eat.. haha.. seemed like a eating outing lar.. den i met jingwen n gang there, and a min later yongsheng n gang..wahah.. its so coincidental can? the 2 of them. .so i was saying they secretly arrange meeting(: hah.. anyway, me,mt n zw finally decided to go for a movie.. i wanted to watch epic movie or happy bday, zw wanted to watch protege or ghostrider.. both of em dun want happy bday, so i cudnt watch>.< then zw was saying epic movie had v low rating.. then i din wan to watch protege.. then while we decided on twins mission, it was like 130pm when time was 12.. hah.. so it was between epic n ghostrider, n final decision was ghostrider coz its longer duration, so wun feel cheated of e money, as quoted from e 2 of em.. haha..
thank gdness we watched ghostrider can.. coz we saw e trailer for epic movie b4 e show n it was like totally LaME.. hah.. n at e end of e show, i was like im so glad i watched ghostrider.. turned out its q nice lar.. like fighting evil.. haha.. yepyep.. and then we finally went home.. ^^ weird, funny new yr ehz? hah..

Valentines' Day - a day to love n to miss..

2007-02-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

This is seriously the first v-day i really celebrate.. i mean it >.< unless u count last yr's prank on my ogls(: hah.. tt was e funnest vday ever^^ n im missing it.. Mmm still rmb dadaboyboy tt made e class laugh so hard we could hear them from the stairs.. hah.. but anyhow, yea, so its only in jj tt i rly care abt vday.. for 4yrs in ny, ive only received, til i feel so guilty..
i came to sch all excited lar... hah.. although i prepared near to nothing, i was abt to give stuff to my campers.. but i was ready to do it in sch(: anyhow, whoa, i received e most presents this yr lar! <3
ok, yep, tts all abt v-day bah.. though exciting, but ya, more concerned abt my og.. ok, here i go again abt how much i lurve them, how much i miss them..but i was in serious lost e first few days tt they din appear in sch, even if its in e morning.. its like, w/o j1s, it's so empty.. w/o my campers, its worse.. yea.. yest aftnoon was so unusually quiet, it rly left me lost..
but had an outing tt i din noe of until after sch.. yep.. among e usual few, elgin,junhao,(jas,jingwen,junkai) din come.. im sure we still continued to have fun.. but erm, i dunno lor, suddenly i got all so moody once again.. but nv show bah..just felt so much like taking non-airconned 154 home.. e long ride wan... it has always been my best place to quietly think things thru, having serious time of my own.. yea.. partly coz i wanna indulge in my sadness lor.. tear abit, cry abit.. dunno lar... but i tink e reason was mainly coz of one who's leaving..but it all adds up.. like alot not first choice jj, alot going poly in og10.. ok,im using fallacy words.. but yea.. tts wat i mean.. den other j1s tt im close to oso, some unable to stay on, some moving on.. yea.. den yea, talking abt tt One.. hmm.. dunno leh.. nv tot i'll get so upset.. like has got v great impact on me.. i wonder y too >.< harbouring 'bad' tots.. like wish will end up in jj.. hah.. but not as if anybodys unhappy here mah =] hope not..

blogging bt this coz im wondering y tt One has such great impact.. no its not coz of Love in TT sense definitely.. maybe just coz i got close to? or ( i came up with an even more absurd one) maybe its just a certain familiarity of another in this person? i wonder.. but i found them the same build.. hah.. yepyep.. yea, tts all.. im all sleepy.. haven done e vday prezz for them as promised =x dun kill me>.<

Revelation '07

2007-02-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

oooooo.. omg, rly long since ive updated.. hah.. nah.. actually ive been trying to finish e previous entry for so long, so i din have time to blog abt e subsequent events.. but loads have passed since orientatn.. shall try summarising all here..
REVELATION WAS OVER, on 07/02/07! T.T
wah, i was totally upset lor.. can cry any moment u wanted me to.. i dunno y but im rly rly attached to these ppl.. hah.. i tink coz of e constant outings bah.. e continuous outings is whoa, tremendously tiring..but its always so funny n memorable..i got so attached rly, tt i dunno wat to do w/o em.. have placed all my energy on them.. all sorts, all kinds.. ppl tt im attached to, wasnt just those at e camp but also jasmine n junkai! those tt ponned e camp! hah, they are equally high de lor.. hah.. yea, so at revelation, i was tinking of all e times we spent together, be it amanda, or stacy time(: or even suanwoo time! hah.. im sure my og knows wat im saying.. haha...and all e claps..all e highs and even lows lar.. we've had countless spontaneous outings.. lesser n lesser ppl attend, until it became almost like clique outing.. >.< if only time would stop here.. no, i dun wish to move on.. i dun wanna leave jj, i dun wanna take my A's, i dun wanna see my campers leave, i dun wanna stop being facilitator, i dun wanna be uninvolved in camps, i dun want, i dun want, i dun want!

yea, ok, so what happened during revelation? ogls ended n met at 930, campers ended at 10 but meeting at 1030.. we ogls were supposed to be there, preparing to appear during revelation, holding the candles.. original plan was council video n camp video den we appear, then thanking video.. but somehow became we come out first before camp video.. or sth liddat bah.. den e candle i took was so hard to light lar.. Sorry to ashley and erm (i forgot who was e guy council le>.<).. sorry for giving a crazy candle tt drips wax b4 its properly lit.. sorry for having to stop the flow because of the candle.. but yep, we appeared.. and we watched the family video with them.. the families' videos were all q nice bah.. f2 de was e most erm, touching to me bah..den we had song singing session.. tts when like a few ogls teared, n JASmine CrieD! omg.. haha.. i tink e few of us were rather surprised.. esp those tt went send huiqian off would know, how she's a drama queen tt act like shes upset like mad.. haha.. so we were tinking if she was really crying.. n realised she rly was, and whoa.. haha.. taken aback.. for me, i was tearing q bad oso.. yea,would have been worse if i was alone, not with any of em.. i was on the verge of tears juz b4 revelation started le.. but e candle ting made me lost those emotions at tt moment-.- but yea, was tearing and all e while right infront of me n beside me, weichuan and yongsheng were squabbling over who's looking at who.. -.-lll haha, uall gd lor..ppl down there emo, uall dun care n spoil mood summore >.<>
then so og outing : steamboat~ but i guess we cant rly count it og.. but this time we got more than e usual few(: e planning comm-kenneth,xinfang,shijie, they were released to join us! (: yea, steamboat, we waited n waited for ppl, then reached clementi, wait for jasmine n elgin,den go turf eat.. met ac ppl.. at first junhao was down.. but he warmed up during e steamboat.. ^^ me kenneth n amy were cooking oyster egg! haha.. so fun lar! n so nice~ shall put up pics if i rmb.. den aft tt, ppl went high, dancing mass dance, including with a chair, etc etc.. at night, seemed like many were down suddenly.. tink elgin was not his usual during steamboat too >.<>.<>

OG 10 '07

2007-01-09T17:43:00.000+08:00

What else can i say other than UALL ARE THE BEST! woohoooo! i've never ever had such such such great campers..
yea,on the first day, there were the kangkong family(:, esp kangkong who din really want to cheer.. and one led to chain reaction, influencing another to not follow the hand actions too..and we even heard the baocai of his evil plans of getting mc to skip the camp.. >.<>.<>.<>.<>.<
which reminds me,us food attach had a plan, to have leow here to see us get worried abt campers eating cold green bean soup.. (before tt chris already enacted how leow would address the crowd abt us, n i have a recording of it lar! hah) yea, den he was like, wah, the soup is filled with ur love or sth lar.. somewhere near our expectations of his reaction lar.. den he said this, so what is ur pt? wahah.. i wanted to laugh lar.. hah.. so we tried to make our pt across lor.. den he left.. and we were wondering if he's gonna do wat we expect.. but he didnt i guess.. haha.. ok, so tt was the food attach episode for day1(: den our ogs came.. og10 was looking super tired.. haha.. ok lar, some.. i didnt manage to talk to them much oso >.<
WON tt night games! woooohooo!! wah, i was super happy when i heard it.. den i was asking them excitedly, and they responded with the huh/tired face.. haha.. heh, coz their joy over it was over by then le, replaced with only SLP.. hah.. so cute lar theyall(: oh and at night, we practiced the dance abit and then me n jessica went to wash the soya bottles.. aft being left for one day, it was super sick.. all the fermented milk was stuck in the bottles, some spilled out on the plastic bags.. e smell was BAD *.* then we made honey water for them.. mainly ivan doing, i was rather lazy^^.. so i was q impressed by him.. hah.. aft whicch we finally went for baths.. me sinyu jessica n alex dillydally until v late.. wanted to slp in field.. but in e end only alex n yz slept dere.. we slept at canteen at 4+ if im not wrong.. n woke up at 5+ too tired to go for morning briefing..haha..

CAMP DAY 2 yes! it was e jjnight day! im gonna see my ogls! ^^^^ nope, tt wasnt the main pt.. so they started the day with PT which i missed once again coz of food attach.. by then i was getting more n more upset.. coz i mean e travelling time to family spot n eating time is e precious interacting moments.. n im missing all of it.. i was rly sad tinking abt how i din get to know them better..yea, so i was upset for e day bah.. of course not in front of them^^ its all at food attach times i guess..chris was also thinking abt oUr 06 orientation, n also abt his campers..
btw, so bck to topic! we had kinetic warfare which was hmms, fun bah(: haha.. nah, im sure its v fun to them^^ it was there tt i saw how e og was livening up! wah <3>.<>.< heh.. i dunnno why but i was too tired to finish writing.. sleeping by e time i got to e 5th person i tink.. hah.. i nv used to be like tt leh.. can last for v long.. its this camp lar.. make me more tired than ever.. haha.. so day2 ended in Zzzzzzs..
DAY 3 came.. e-web..wah..all e ogs ogls pushing e job ard.. hah.. our og oso.. i din rly dare do coz i screwed up bad e time i did it with cdss de.. tot huiying shud be q gd but she dun wan >.< den in e end, i just gave up asking others le.. so yep, i was up there for e briefing.. made great preparations as to how i want things to flow.. and phew,i did it lar.. e summation was lousy but yepyep, overall,better than b4 lor^^ den a few gals tt i noticed cried lo.. dnno abt e rest lar.. but i rly tried my best to do it lyk jl but tink erm, 65% of his bah.. like not impactful to me leh.. hy agrees.. =x yea..so there came an end to orientation.. and im happy to see how this og has evolved.. slowly immersed into jj culture.. og10, uall rawk <3

back to school

2007-01-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

ohwells, its admin day.. haha, we had a high morning welcoming the campers.. but energy got rly drained so fast.. wonder y.. i mean e campers r not rly difficult to deal with as compared to erm, i dunno, other camps bah.. but i got sooo tired.. maybe from lack of sleep or sth..
yea, agree tt ogls are still not rly up to standard bah.. like ppl not pushing e campers, not rushing them, not engaging em enough.. including myself, kinda slackened i guess.. like i cant rmb the names anymore!! >.< something i always tot i was q nashou.. mix up ppl everywhere liddat.. sigh.. tsk tsk.. disappointed w myself..
hmm, maybe its just coz its 1st day n im expecting too much.. but rly, its camp already.. going too fast..
throughout the whole day today, i was tinking back of when i first joined jj.. how my og warmed up as early as 1st day.. buying all the shoelace for whole og, getting them for our ogls also... how our family head was screaming til his veins were Seriously bursting.. how everyting just mattered lah.. so i totally missed orientation lor.. it seem to be yesterday tt i was going thru it.. i totally didnt rmb tt i was in j2 already..no, in no way am i going to look like a senior.. i dun feel like one at all..
so yep, i miss orientation, og22.. n yea, im no j2 and may orientation succeed, og10 be great(:

Recap 2006

2006-12-31T20:03:00.000+08:00

ohwells, its time to do my tradition
[2006] - e most eventful yr in my whole 17 yrs

Orientation Camp 01 '06 - F5 Og22
ogl camp
Orientation Camp 02 '06 - F1 Og5 F4 Og20
cca - interact (:
southwest cdc campfire
tjcc walkathon
tjyouth / tjyec
common test T.T
Live Camp
grandma's funeral
national day
Leaders Camp
teachers' day
promos T.T
Cdss Camp
Work~
Prices Camp
Yunnan
ogl camp

The list itself is already crazy enuff i guess.. but its probably not all.. there were definitely more events i didnt mention.. through all these events, ive known ppl of seriously all ages in this one yr..
so we'll start..
to review my resolutions i blogged in jan, nope, i din go hc, nor did i study as hard as i wanted to,nor did i RLY follow my interests, nor did i write to angel as promised though i did try.. but i did n rly DID Start afresh.. n i did keep in touch with some old frens.. and i did meet q some virgos but none same bday as me yet T.T i only know of someone one number nxt to my i/c.. flavian(: so basically, i failed half my resolutions.. but the main one i did(:

kz, so my yr started with orientation which bonded me to og22 so much, we EAT together, play tog, gossip tog, prank our ogls tog.. etc etc.. ok, the usu active few lar.. den of how i got to know 06S19 - the og16 ppl, ppei, kian,hongming.. i can still rmb how much FrEeDoM there was in 1st 3mths.. its seriously play.. though i was still q diligent lar.. at least at first.. den of ogl interview-all the tips joel was giving, den of ogl (nattaber!), den of og5n og20.. i had fun and more fun for very long..
it was all until sch rly started, reality rly reached me, and before i knew it, it was common test.. in btwn i had a little problems here n dere.. but certain tings cant be resolved i guess.. den common test, sth hit me.. i was in for a new part of my life.. i would say its a milestone.. somehow ever since then, school started going alittle long for me.. it just felt like it was another year already.. >.< thx to xiaoling(: i cheered up.. haha.. it was actually a xmas card frm her.. not her lar.. but she's been cheering me up for the whole yr..haha.. talk abt keep in contact with old frens^^ she's part of it definitely(: hope she ends up happily ever after(^.^)
tts for xy,stlla,atn,ziyu,dty,dotzz,jm,knees,yq,pat,chiobu,michelle too and all others tt i cant rmb right now(:
oh ya! i forgot abt my work! haha.. oh first time working like tt and whoa tt was so cool! hah.. i felt the adrenaline and the dread of working.. haha.. and and and.. learnt so much! haha.. all e bio stuff.. but im still lost as to my occupation.. >.< special thanks to dor,stella,xiaoling,xinying, ashley,yiyan, kaiyan,ber,denise,emily,nicholas, elijah,fabian,jianing, benchew,kian,yuzheng,ernest,david,chinchye, meiting,xiangyu,joyce, melissa,sinyu, huiwen family, n david,sharifah,rommel,n e rest of quest lab n SHERsquid for making a difference in my 2006 life!
may i survive nxt yr! esp when i haven pia-ed my hw yet.. shud go bck to dat.. may it not be a stressful year ahead! n may i do well! esp for my gp! BRUSH it up!
lastly, 2006 was a great yr! to have made me change alot, exp alot.. 2006 u rawk! may 2007 be as gd or half as gd(:

Happy Birthday ElijAH(:

2006-12-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

oh well, so i went out with my 3 gays ie my supposed godbros with ber(; coz it's jah's bday and i wanted so much to celebrate for him.. esp aft his downs.. yep(: although erm, we ended up getting so awkward thruout, but hope u enjoyed it still(:
me n ber were talking abt their bdays a few days ago, and since elijah's bday was coming up, we decided to go out with him on 15 (which was 1 day aft his bday) to celebrate it as a surprise. but one of e scouts were not free if i dun rmb wrongly so we decided to go on 14 instead.. and i wasnt rly free on 15 anyway, so it was better to lar(:
den jianning was sms-ing me tt elijah already knew we were celebrating and i wondered y, tinkng he's q smart.. but mabbe it was coz of ber lar.. -.- she was on the bus with ahma, denise and she happily talked abt how we're celebrating it.. and all along elijah was right in front of him =.= smart ber right?

anyway, we wanted to meet earlier to get him a cake but we ended up not doing so, coz we cudnt decide in time and had no utensils to eat them anyway.. >.< no matter wat, we went for a movie instead n we treated him to a movie he decided on.. he wanted to watch Cinderella, and THAnK GdNEss tt movie tics were sold out by e time we reached so we watched Deja Vu instead(: PHeW. and tics are SOOOOo cheap at causeway pt lar! 66 bucks oni.. ^^ den we went arcade for a short while.. n i tink i heard jah say he dun play arcade.. seemed like oni jianning's e expert among us.. hah.. oh ya, they were at e boxing machine when i sneaked a photo of them 3.. finally have a photo of them! haha.. =D
which reminds me, somehow they look v different from wat i rmbed.. xiao di di men zhang de le! T.T xinwei~ (: haha.. but still felt like our kid brothers lar.. hah..
neway, aft the movie, we went for dinner at mac.. me n ber claimed tt we going toilet and ran off to get them 3 pieces of cake for their '06 bdays before coming bck(; and they were still asking us, tot uall went toilet, but toilet is e other direction? hahah.. jah was the last to catch where we went.. anyway, den ber ps me to makan with her family -.- so i sat there quietly with them.. they oso q quiet.. the 3 of them talk v softly lar.. hah.. not like us at all, rowdy.. hah, need to get them come jj to get trained(: den later when we were going home, they had difficulty holding the box of cakes and fabian went to get a plastic bag which was erm, the size for mabbe a drink? hahalol.. but anyway, they finally got a suitable carrier b4 we left e mall..
while the 3 of them were going jn's house, i was going home.. let them spend their gay world together(: dun be lightbulb lar ah..hah.. ok lar, their brotherhood world.. no matter wat, it was super funny on the mrt.. the 3 of them looked like they din noe each other on the train! one listening to music near the door, the other on music at the opposite door, one in the middle, not listening to anyting.. poor ting lar.. but if i talk only to him, then the rest will start saying i lyk him again -.- but neway, oso dunno wat to say lar.. it just looked v comical lar..

no matter wat, they're super cute and super sweet! (: i enjoyed spending time with them no matter how awkward it appeared to be.. coz the love is still there^^ and last but not least, happy bday elijah (:

Mercedes Benz Donation

2006-12-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

today i finally went back for another cc event, after a loooong time.. hah.. i was half regretful, thinking of the ppl who might come but i was in for quite a surprise (:
i met another of our age who was ch,hc.. so it didnt seem as awkward as it started out coz we 2 were supposed to work together in e same counter. we were chatting and somehow W was e topic.. wahah.. all the gossips.. n jx finally know wat kind of guy he is.. den i went a little further with my qns, probing him.. and his reply surprised me q some bit, coz he could just say ppl lyk him but he rejected them so cool-ly. ppl who do so are usu those who have a super duper big ego. but for his case, it seem more of just a confidence.. not ego, not arrogance.. so i respect him.. and more interaction with him made me understand even more y gals do like him as he claimed. all i can say is he's rather engaging, confident, driven, realistic (though he claim to be idealistic if i didnt rmb wrongly) , mature, successful.. yepp.. tink im praising him too much.. haha.. but all i can say is tts my impression of him lor.. hah..
but no, before anyone mistaken, i dun like him in any other way.. just as friends..hah..
it's just tt ive nv come across ppl like him tts our age.. so im q impressed and so im blogging it..
i'd say he's a role model to me lor.. yep(:
so i ended up leaving the benz ting more happy than when i came coz i got to know a great friend, and a role model, tt will inspire me to strive. besides, ive got to know other yec ppl, and am helping out in some way or another in some events.. although im still q lost for now, and regarded as in the subgrp.. hopefully they'll grow out of tt tot of us. coz i dun wanna be tot as only sb in subgrp but yec itself(: and i'll strive towards tt goal ^^

what is ur connection type

2006-12-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

Yeow, your connection type is The Recreational Talker

Who needs a reason to call when friends are just a speed dial away? There's no need to be alone — not when your pals are on the other end of the line. Let's face it. You've got a lot of opinions and it's fun to share them with people real-time. Why wait to discuss the big play or who was just voted off the island when you can compare notes as things happen?

You probably connect with friends because when it comes down to it, you just like to talk — even when you don't have a lot to say. Your buds will probably agree that it's your sunny, funny chatty style that makes you a fun friend to hear from anytime. So keep it up and keep sharing with everyone in your phonebook.

lost =X

2006-12-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

i dunno but i seem to be rather aimless these few days.. coz im recovering from yunnan still? i wonder.. somehow, i seem to have lost touch with my usual friends.. ppl like denise, emily etc etc.. i 'blame' yn trip, but tinking again, it probably started ever since i started working.. but but but, i dunno.. i cant help but feel VERY lost.. like my whole life is waiting for sat to give me directions.. but i noe no directions will come my way..
ppl right now reading my blog, if u feel lost reading the entry, yea tts it.. im rly lost.. lost til my words probably dun make sense. tts how bad it is..
anyway, all i can say is im living in pessimism right now.. sick, cant go out, dun wish to do anyting, sleeping til late hours.. and i just keep tinking im missing out in others life.. im still thinking about yunnan.. not missing it, but tinking abt wat would have happened if i chose australia? actually i had alot of whatifs in my mind.. n im reflecting my whole j1.. and i dunno.. im just going into depressed state right now, and i wonder why..
im LOST.

YuNnaN

2006-12-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

it's the breathtaking views and the friendships forged that are left in memory. what else? i really don't know..

i have to say that its not the best trip but a very different experience frm my usual china trips.. im sorry but i ended up comparing with my shenyang trip, which was the latest of my china exp, and all i can say is im disappointed in this one. sometimes i wonder why too. why is it so different? mabbe coz there is no point of similarity. i mean this is probably too big a grp, travelling too often, ..... i dunno..
or mabbe all the physical difference does not matter.. its the bond? coz i got very bonded with the grp i was with, while this one, the bond is not there coz everyone stick back to their clique? i wonder..

anyhow, i enjoyed the trip in a different way(: i dunno wat too..mabbe the singular frenships ive made? the sceneries ive nv seen? the knowledge ive never acquired? yep, i guess tts all.. all i can say is YUNNAN is a beautiful place. oh ya,one more ting is i got to watch comedy at china! hahah.. it was so fun.. right serleng? hahahalol..

PriceS

2006-11-25T13:50:00.000+08:00

oh well, just wanna sumup first before i go for the long essay.
so i started the camp with alot of wonders if it will work and prepared to give all my support.
while i had the mentality of a usual fac, the campers just showed that they are a different bunch. no easy love can win them over. mabbe its just my family (the notorious F3). im not sure. but i really LoVe my campers..
ive been facs for so many camps, but this is the only camp i really CRIED..not tear, not forced..it came naturally on priceless night n i was crying real bad.. ppl who didnt go, u missed a great show man.
it all started from getting drained out as early as first event of the camp. u dunno how devilish they are.. uncontrollable. then how i gradually understood how to take care n connect with them - how to inspire them, how each camper require a different way to control, how....... its the xtra mile to go.
and how much all of us love them got me to tears too. the csls, they may be inexperienced, but their love for them won over everythingelse.. i mean how everyone was concerned if the campers fall asleep, how ppl stayed outside the rms to ensure they slp, how they wake up at the slightest movement, how there were constantly ppl coming up to check if the campers were asleep, if they were cold..
then how cute and energetic the campers were.. how they slept, how they woke up 45 min before time, everything..to us, they may had appear devilish, but we saw the angels behind those devils, and u can tell that they start to get akin to u, trust u, love u.. it just made us smile.. AND so they made me cry.. coz i know i'll miss them.. they made me learn alot, grow alot.. become alot more mature i guess in a sense.. they filled my life, my mind..
then the emptiness i felt after the camp was tremendous.. at the same time, i felt the maturity.. it just struck me.. at this moment, i rmbed mr leow's words to us when we were first time ogls.. he said abt how our ogls had changed from j1 to j2 in their maturity level tt cud even be seen facially.. its all because of the preparation of the camp and taking care of us..(how the ogls won our respect) i tink this is the impact on me.. rly.. i din feel it during orientation, but truly at this camp..

GREAT BLOG

2006-11-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

i saw this on alex's nick.. at first i thought it was his and i was amazed at how he writes his entries. then i realise its a fren's blog, not his. but still, it's a GREAT BLOG! i mean it. its really inspiring. the language is.. undescribable. all i can say is he can make a really good writer, especially a self-help or motivational books.. GO READ IT FRIENDS, i mean that is what u call a gd blog.. and especially for that SPECIAL Friend, u shud know who im toking abt, u must read it! im sure it'll help u some way or another. (: u're flying without wings ^.^
justeafortissimo.blogspot.com

last days at work

2006-11-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

just scanned thru my entry abt work when i just started.. all the excitement n vigour. hah.. so without knowing, it has been days after days and now im reaching the end of my working period.
looking back, i started out all energetic, wanting to have fun, and so money was just symbollic to me.. den i started to feel the dread.. partly coz i just wasnt able to mix with my colleagues..it's just different from setting foot on an unknown place at the same time.. and besides, the work's making me unable to do anything.. no time to catch up with friends, no time to even go online, no time to do my personal stuff like just simply blogging or writing my journal and even more so for my homework.. so im really not catching up. and im just getting afraid of how to start school without preparing?
but there were definitely days i were happy there, or even minutes.. like the jokes we have there, the enjoyment of radio while working w/o a supervisor at night, etc etc.. even how im starting to make out some words of malay was part of the fun.. of how sometimes they can be very warm to me.. i simply appreciate all the small little things i see in that workplace.. and i even now own a cute-candy or eye-cutie or wateva u wan to call it.. hah.. coz its not any gdlooking person.. but simply coz of cute character.. like how someone looking so mu tou can actually be making the OH expressions and other cute youthful stuff.. and how he caught me playing with the water cooler in the pantry, and tried not to even snigger.. hah..
yesterday, i had my blood test. it was a free blood test for lab technicians leaving, like tradition of the workplace... so i agreed to it and had to fast for 10 hrs.. u may tink its nothing.. but not eating from 8am to 6pm while working was q hell for me.. as in my stomach was grumbling since 1pm when i reported for work.. yet i had to smell all their food at the pantry and listen to them chat abt food during work.. i wonder if i was sensitive but they seem to continuously mention makan etc tt day.. but i told myself a few more hrs left! and i lasted til 5pm.. tt was when i started to feel really cold.. like from within me, i was feeling the cold..i mean i was in e labcoat! i was starting to wonder if i was gonna blackout, but i knew i didnt feel weak, just cold.. but i was working, writing, walking normally.. wow,i wonder how the malays actually fast.. esp those in chestnut camp.. we were running! and they can still fast?! oh my.. take my hats off uall(; anyway, so i had half my report yesterday tt told me im normal ( alittle sad but better than being ill ) and today the other half that told me im rather normal still. hah..
oh ya, so the blood test seem to have got me closer to some of the staff.. like seeing ur blood being transported here and there by ur fellow colleagues.. hah..it also seem to signify that im leaving v soon..
and somehow, i tink im just starting to get used to the place, the culture, the colleagues, the work, everything.. T.T
so tml might be my last day there and i wish to take more pictures.. hopefully im able to and have time to(:

work!

2006-11-05T12:25:00.000+08:00

suddenly a job came my way.. had to work frm noon to night for all of wkdays..my mornings would end up waking up, eat, go for work.so it went on for 3 days.. den i was supposed to have my saturday n sun booked for camp in sch.. thank gdness it was changed into a single long day.. but i got real tired by the end of the day.. rly.. din wanna move at all lar.. just wanted to 'die' at ln mess..

anyway, tok abt work! haha.. im working at this company wif lab lar.. lyk deal wif blood samples and stool n urine samples etc.. so supposed to identify diseases with the samples lor.. and im just helping to unpack, and other routine 'admin' work.. yep.. not doing all the research, so ppl who know im not a bio student can feel safe abt their samples lar.. it was a fun experience lar..

first day: wed, 1 Nov. i was slightly lost as to how to get to the company.. but still got there in time.
the person i was suposed to look for when i reach was out of town.
i was asked to wait at the reception, then brought to one of the workers in lab coat,david.
den he asked if i knew wat the company was doing n i totally had no idea =X he got slightly freaked. hah.
den i was arranged with a malay lady,sharifah in lab coat. oh ya, i was given a lab coat and gloves to wear too.
she taught me alot. from the first work we start doing. den aft we finished e part, we did the nxt, and i just kept learning new tings. all the bio stuff ive never known. and how to handle some stuff i bet bio frens haven learnt(:
i talked to some of my 'colleagues' too.. (feel weird using tt word =X) ok lar.. made new frens.. the whole environment was rather malay.. not being racist but majority speaks melayu.. even David who was supposed to be chinese spoke malay with them.. den the two chinese (who somehow are the ones who din talk to me at all) spoke canto.. n david conversed in canto with them.. so he knows 4 lang..n tink tts not all.. q cool rite? most probably malaysian.. anyway, so ya, i toked abit to some of e malays there and also theres one frm philipines and also an indian.. yep..ppl there are nice but erm mabbe too busy to care. i was rather stranded at times.. but still ok lar.. first day mah..

cheer up!

2006-10-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

frens around me seem to be rather upset..different people over different reasons.. and here i am, to tribute it to one special fren.
mabbe he never knew, but he was one special fren.. someone different from even his bunch of frens..
im sorry fren, for letting the post stay stagnant, breaking my promise to u. i was really busy over work etc n hadnt been seriously online for long. and now, i shall recreate this entry for u (23/11).
u've been great ever since the first day i knew u. if u haven known, id say i click best with u and i really enjoy ur craps. i love how u express urself, ur emotions directly and sincerely. it melts my heart really(: and im sure it melted many more hearts all around u. ppl do care and love u. trust me. u mentioned the gal in ur blog (the gal whom uall say im like) since im like her, im there for u too, just like her(: and im sure ur frens do all really notice u, and want to help u.. all u need to do is to open up for them(: u can always share ur family problems out with all of us.. we'll help u to the best we can.. but im sure u're not the worst in terms of family scenario.. coz i know worse families.. :]

u seem to have tried suicide.. and all i can tell u is suicide is not the solution to problems.. you may have times which u feel are bad, but think again, within them, there must be happy moments too(: even if its for a simple 10 seconds among the 24 hr long bad day or event, there's still the joy there(: a joy which u wudnt want to forget. just like how my sec life were in ruins, how i wish i wud forget them all.. but when i tot again, i rmbed alot of happy incidents.. how i had fun overseas, how i made a joke with frens, etc etc. STAY POSITIVE really! im sure u can do it! i trust u! if u need someone to go out with and just relax away from home or sth, u can always find me (: and even others like ur gang of frens. so CHEER UP and Get Well Soon^^

one more thing, if u din know, u really rawk. if u died just then, i would be really affected. just like all ur frens i know would.. n frens i dunno too. when u die, u make others suffer, not yourself. but while u r dying, when ur whole life flashes across u, and u realise all the happy moments u had, it'll be too late to want to live again for the happy things. so THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS ALWAYS n STAY HAPPY ^^ smile more!

memories memories

2006-10-28T21:22:00.001+08:00

oh well, since to me blogging is all abt memories, of course i have to tribute an entry to memories ehz?
but this entry is no random one. its just some thoughts struck my mind, coz of events aft events that left me thinking for very long.
i've lived life for 17yrs now, and im left with memories after memories.

i still rmb my kindergarden mates, 2 best friends, 1 laogong, 1 pair of twins who kept me busy, 1 hated teacher, lots of teachers who loved me. i rmb receiving a blue handmade bag by my tchr and a pair of gold earrings i still keep till now. i rmb sneaking during aftnoon naps to swallow paper n sweet wrappers. i rmb packing up the toys, only few knowing the orders of how each box of toys are placed. i rmb getting scolded by the hateful teacher for nothing.

i rmb my prisch life. how i went from fat n chubby to underweight gal to acceptable but look underweight gal. how the school had changed teachers, principals, and its appearance. how i went b4naft sch centre where ive known alot more frens.. n esp frens who sticked w me like a clique for i tink at least 4 yrs.. how we actually hate each other but stick together all the while n have great fun. how we soon separated aft one by one slowly left the carecentre. how i had a best fren in my last yrs.. how i had great guy buddies.. how we had love rumours all ard.. how we had girl clubs n boy clubs..how we had office politics at such young age, competing like mad in marks..how i dreaded sch at times.. how e guys made spikes using staples.. how i was nicknamed fuzzy..how we went china, beijing n kunming, n how we got lost at kunming.. how we had food poisoning incident tt made us prefects bz..n it was caused by water cooler -.- n was on e news.. how i was so fierce towards the notorious jnrs during morning duty tt e headgal hated me, who happens to be sister of notorious badboy of our batch.. but how i became his fren anyway.. and also how i took part in competitions.. from robotics to 'dance'.. hah..

and then my sec life.. how i was so glad to be in my sec sch.. one ting, it was my dream sch n i had frens here.. another, it was a much happier place to me then, as compared to my pri sch.. i indeed had fun in sec1.. all the angel-mortal ting got me rly crazy..esp over my angel.. tts y loads of my stuff has angel arh.. not coz im an angel or anyting.. but coz i was super crazy over my angel.. n tink she knew n might have got spooked by my extent.. bu yea, she's great n im still riting to her^^..but by mid sec2 my life was changing.. i wonder y too.. was it simply coz of just 1 fren? tinking abt it, dun tink so.. but its one factor.. den also coz i started suffering low self-esteem. it was it in e early stages.. frm i guess both dance n aep did it.. n the studies too.. but all i can blame is probably myself coz i chose to slack wif my frens but slack worse than they did.. so while i slacked, the rest were improving.. so no matter whether i had the "it" when i first came, it just din shine no more coz other lights who MiGhT had been dimmer started shining..tt i wud tink would oni apply to dce..as for the other aspects, i was competing with the creme de la creme in e first place.. some were already better.. but i slacked so much i just couldnt compete no more.. so by s2, i was going downhill, getting more inconfident n low-esteemed.. n den the ting tt perked me up -- shenyang trip in s3.. tts y i precious it so much.. i was alive n confident once again(: it boosted me into my s4 yrs.. but the reality was still dere when i had to face the old grp of ppl.. those eyes.. sigh.. s4 was the most stressed period of my life.. memories of how i had to juggle shenyang xchange grp, studies, aep, dance(syf) and relationships with frens, tchrs, n my xchange mate. loads n loads.. it got me rly depressed.. i had not much apetite, was so stressed i was breaking down.. i slimed down alot then.. tt was my superstressed days.. but oso memories of syf competition,of how i attained enlightenment how to dance at s3eoy,of how i became my most flexible, of the opening at esplanade.. *myriads of colours*, of how i had fun doing my animations, the recording, etc etc.. of how dance studio was my home, how art rm was my home. And how i climbed the sch gate.. oh ya, how we tried to break the longest popiah record, ending up on tv but realise we got it wrong.

den now, of orientation, and orientation, and camps aft camps.. of all my fun, friends, commitments, etc etc.. of how i found new frenships and relationships with tchrs, guards, aunties, students, friends, etc etc.. of all the memories.. ive had til now mainly gd memories.. there are certain small regrets here n dere.. there are also memories turned bad which i want to throw away like my past..

but today's small event, another memory, somehow left me in tot n it struck me tt no, i shudnt try to forget any of my memories.. bad ones are equally impt.. it shud be kept together.. they are meant to be rmbed, not forgotten.. because in the bad or turned bad memories, there is bound to be joy tt is hidden and with bad memories can there only be gd ones.. life cannot be a bed of roses, neither can it be a bed of thorns.. so in those bad memories, there is JoY.. and true enuff, as i typed thru my whole life memories, i found happiness amongst the sad memories i've had.. in all of them.
so, keep all memories, because memories are meant to be rmbed, not forgotten, because u nv know what joy u will find in recalling them and what happiness u may lose in throwing them away.

my first $30!

2006-10-27T19:01:00.000+08:00

hmm, to me tt was rather easy money >.< like getting paid for wasting time.. not bad not bad... dun mind invigilating more.. hehheh.. i mean ppl get bored doing invigilating lar, but its actually q ok mah.. imagine getting paid for doing near to nothing.. feel abit lyk getting free money lar =X coz at least for me, i like to waste time just letting my mind roam.. so usually i would be wasting my time away.. now i can use tt time to let my mind roam.. so while tinking, im earning money every minute.. yea sth liddat.. still feel like the money i shudnt take lar.. i rly did nothing.. =x but its ok, i want more work! work work work! ^^

'07 F2!!

2006-10-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

lalalalalalalala!!!! weeeee!
ok, so i wasnt super happy tt i was in f2 at first lar.. coz one thing is i chose to be in f2 during interview coz i wanted to go F5, my original orientation family and coz i want to take virgos =D. another ting is coz a whole big grp of us chose f2 together, so i had the impression tt if they are not in f2, they must be in f5 mah.. n also coz got camper in f5.. hehehe.. (Y aM i SO HiGH tonight?!! - i mean im grinning to myself for nothing leh! including the hee there) i mean i tink got camper same family as u will be a different exp, n if its same og its even more different..
as many ex-ogls have said, it would seem weird. i dunno if weird is the word, but what they feel is like, just less than a yr ago, they were doing their best to make campers cheer n catch the jj spirit, now they are doing it together to their shared campers.. as what emily had said straight after '06 02 orientation, "imagine cheering with ur ogls (for nxt orientation)" at tt moment i was tinking abt it.. it seem erm nice yet weird.. undescribable..

anyway, den i looked at f4, i dun mind going there either! there's got campers, gd frens, n both my female ng-mates lar! q a lot of ppl i noe lor.. aiya, but i looked at f2 this time in detail, den i realise, actually i know q ALOT of them. i mean out of 27, actually i oni dunno ard 8? just no super close wan unless u toking abt my 9-yr fren.. so i was still happy tt i was dere lar.. at least im not in family i dunno ppl at all.. and even if i go f5, i might have problems.. so id rather be where i am(: and so was contented^^ n coz i had jessica, a wandering soul like me..
me n her were 'bonded' together wif denise n sinyu n melissa via a short game of squash.. haha.. super funny squash session.. laughing like crazy over silly things.. n thanks so much for all e patience and laughters and even teaching! haha, i can finally hit the ball and start the ball! n play a near layman's standard game! weee(: haha.. sound q pathetic ehz? cant even play squash.. but i did it wif emily last time ok! haha.. n sinyu just say where i gone wrong den i can start a ball liao ok! means i got potential lor(: just tt i nv realise it oni.. =D haha, hehhehheh..

ANYWAY, so we went for ogl meeting.. N i tink im starting to get real bonded to f2ppl le! at least i dun still hope to be in other families(: rooted to f2 le^__^ =D.. though i dunno if we can reach high-ness of '0602f1 but err, getting closer to ppl whom were hi-bye or mere acquaintances! lastly, hope the ogls of '07 will be a high lvl bunch! n '07 camp will succeed!
time:12am! ohno! slp slp slp.. for work tml! ^^ (: SMILE~

YAY!!

2006-10-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeeeeee! haha.. im finally going to work! hahaha.. lalala.. no, its not e admin one, at least not yet.. its a one day $30 buck job.. not bad lar.. for a first timer.. hehheh.. feeling sry for 'employer' haha.. ok lar, i hope i dun screw up lar..
actually it's not my first work le.. but if im gonna get paid, ya, its e first time im gonna get paid working.. e last time round was a flop.. not coz i din work but coz i din get a will-work fren to go.. plus what we were doing were erm illegal. i din noe until i got to my job place. as in i was supposed to be selling along orchard. =x so we haven rly started n we realise we are supposed to avoid 'authorities' by 'colleagues' or should i say peers.. no matter what, should be grateful to tt person.. like we are actually rivals, coz he n frens are selling same products but different company, yet he tried to help us by warning us the arrival of the 'authority'.. but anyway, that experience was in the past le.. ^^
praying hard i dun look dumb tml(: hehheh..

PiG

2006-10-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

aRhhhhhhh! shit lar, on 21st i sent out emails for job applications.. i went to check the nxt day night at around 9pm but no replies were sent back.. n i slept soon aft..=X and the next day, which was yesterday, i went back home, ate, watch goong, so u tink u can dance, n wanted to use e com.. but my bro came back just before my show ended n he used e com!! sheesh.. so i tot i shall wait til he leaves it alone, and i went bck to my rm..n i dumbly decide to switch off the lights while i lie on my bed listening to music and reflect and think abt stuff.. AND u should noe what happens nxt. i dozed off.. -.- T.T
u might be wondering wat is so saddening. oh well lemme tell u, one of the 'employer' responded!! at 11+pm at night on 22nd! and i was supposed to call them yesterday at 12 noon! T.T crap man. tink i just lost it lor.. i mean if had i checked my mail yesterday n called today, maybe i would still have chance! why was i such a PiG?! sigh sigh sigh..
but WAIT.. now that i tink abt it, it's public holiday today right? so means there's no work! mabbe i can still make it tml.. YES! haha.. ok it looks like a monologue.. but i mean i might still have e chance to do e job!!! shudnt tt call for a celebration? (: ^/^
ok den again mabbe i wont get it. n mabbe i wont be able to do it, since it requires 1 month of work from me. and do i really have tt amount of time with all e camps going on? shit.. >.< okok.. no matter wat, even if i dun get e job, im fine lar ah, since im just doing it for e fun.. mabbe i can find a better job even(: +ve attitude always^^

for all who wish to do the test

2006-10-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

simply click on the following link(:
http://www.advisorteam.com/temperament_sorter/register.asp

a much better test than 16pf n free! -.-

2006-10-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The Four types of Idealists are:

Healers (INFP) | Counselors (INFJ) | Champions (ENFP) | Teachers (ENFJ)

untitled update(:

2006-10-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

fingers are itching to type, yet i have no special reason to be blogging.
still, i wanna update about yesterday!
it's been a looooong time since i went to MINDs.. had been hoping to go bck, but once i was really near it, i started to dread it. no, not because i dont like the place. i really do love it. it's just, something's holding me back. i wonder too. probably its the responsibility issue. oh well, i just hate it when everything is on u. especially for my case, i'd never think ive done my job gd. n it's e truth that i havent been a good csd. makes me feel q upset abt myself. but thank goodness i have this bunch of friends with me at minds. if not, im not sure if i can survive.
getting back to my point, i went back minds n we did cleaning up. mop here wipe there. it was rather fun. n den all gathered in the conference room to do cards!!! oh my.. it was fun in there. hopefully no one got offended by my words.. i was joking throughout.. i swear ^___^ really.. to the bottom of my heart.. heard it fairygodmother? UaLL did GreaT! though tink most wun see this, but still i wanna say, the cards were BeAuTiFuL! really.
anyway, most of my minds trip end up real enjoyable.. so i've never regretted getting myself stuck in minds. yepyep.. n soon i'll be dear to e place once again. ^^

den today, OP was ermm ermm.. i shall say for a grp which finished in late midnite, err.. ok....... lar.. but i know we can do it if they will strive with us.. looks like they are willing already(: or maybe not.. im not sure. but err, +ve attitude, we can do it(:

breaking free

2006-10-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

high school musical rox! call me my nick, i dun care^^ but its e first time ive watched it today n i totally love it! ok lar, still its more of e songs.. e show is nice coz of the pretty gals n handsome guys.. okok, dun hit me. yes, the story's sort of cool too.. but definitely, the ultimate is e Songs!! lalala(: hehh.. knew the songs before ive seen this show, n from then i love this song! ~breaking free~ yea, think its v inspiring but din noe its from high sch musical too : / heh.. but ever since i tried to find e lyrics, i know..
we're soaring, flying,
there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach

think it has great tune n lyrics(:
AND why the sudden entry on the song? coz of the soft launch of leaders' mess! (; weee! haha.. e joy in it was how the chestnut ppl came bck!! n of course the west six ppl, though i din noe them before, but now i noe abit(: if only bukit view came bck too.. den we have all our schools already ><.. bt still, it was fun!!

i wonder why also arh.. but the cdians bring me alot of joy n energy. alot alot. mabbe coz im with them all the time? which is sth i din use to have in e past? im not sure. but i do know i rly teng them. n like i say, they bring me joy and energy! i smile when i see them. i forget all the shit !#$%($ project work, etc when im with them. mabbe its the PoWeR of NuTs~ ok, im being lame.heh.. (but it reminds me i haven dedicate an entry to peanuts! i shall(: ) -end-

i wonder

2006-10-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

i feel rather nonchalant. like it hasnt hit me bad at all. im surprised too. even im wondering if im acting. im not sure. but i dun tink so. because for me, i tink i would have burst by the time i reached home, in my own room. but til now im fine. only tinking abt how to shush all people. but then again, i tink there is no need to. i mean whatever goes around will bu gong zi po. im a living proof of nothing.

im getting so pissed off with myself though. like im neither upset nor happy.. of course i shudnt be happy.but im not upset? hmm, i rly wonder why.. but i noe im affected. affected probably in a different way. like how can people's acting be so good? i mean right from the start these are all acts? then im surprised. no matter wat, i feel like ive learnt something thru this. its wat u call the society experience. something ive never seen for years now. but if i have to get back to that, oh well, try me(: haha.. im an experienced one. but a little rusty though. >.< hahah(:

anyway, so to be so indifferent, i tink ive made a mistake again. one that i thought ive finally not made. but still im happy tt im nonchalant N im happy that im promoted(: yepyep.^^

my new skin = my new life - towards j2life

2006-10-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

oh yay(: with my new skin, i shall start afresh^^ i've added in some old posts, but its part of my new life i guess.. i mean jjc is where im starting afresh.
but together with the new skin,i want to start anew again! nxt yr or shud i say starting from this holz, shall be my mugging year(: coz aiya, studies arh, going haywire coz i wanted to have fun.. i wanna retrack, get back into my 1st 3 months.. how the me was like (as ive said in e past, can cope wif both fun n work. make it a balance man! n restrict myself a little) so with my new skin, i aim to study and have fun, tone down a little my craziness, improve myself summore away from my sec life. ^^

before i start on everything else, i had this skin coz it attracted me right from e start^^ e drawings are like super cute!! but im tinking of changing to this dance skin liao =X heh.. coz this is getting dull aft a while.. (since the after promos week, its been here) i wonder why too.. it seem that the likings towards this blogskin came fast n went away fast.. although its still cute.. but it seem to be lacking in a little something.. tink its just coz the skin boxed things up.. and i simply dun like it tt way.. so restricted, so uncomfortable..

so anyway, im starting anew!! after ive found out im PROMOTED(: coz i wanna do great for j2 and for the future uni. yep yep.. my outlook of life has changed frm how it was in sec. n i want it to remain as so. jing yi shi zhang yi zhi. ru jin wo yi jing li le xu xu duo duo de feng yu, wo ke yi jiao ao de shuo wo cheng zhang le. (:

NuTs!!!!!!

2006-10-14T11:29:00.000+08:00

firstly to my darl peanuts, uall rock!! (:

ok, so i went for the chestnut drive camp with whole body willing.. did their banners, form the peanut, completing it to be e most unique flag, AND the day came when we were to meet fellow nuts.. yepyep.. almost everyone came in smiling. for that, i was smiling even more widely(: nothing beats a smile from them really.. so as we moved around trying to recognise faces, knowing their names, we soon got to know all of them.. n know how they have different personalities, how their health conditions were etc etc.. it hurts when they injure themselves. like how rshdl was unwell to dance n play, how don, the running pro, hurt his neck.. i feel the pain too.. cdss seem to have become my 2nd sch,so familiar to me, so dear.. and these cdians, they have become my mates..

chestnut drive is our sch
the name to us is so very dear
we will strive for our schooool
...
onward chestnut drive
...

i may not know the full lyrics n what ive typed may be slightly wrong but the sch song impacted me much when i first rly heard it during morning pt. esp the 1st n 2nd line.. i dunno.. but its just simply patriotism sang out directly. hopefully, they feel like that too (:
but anyway, i can see them more bonded than before, no longer differentiating the lvls.. and they dun rly attitude anyone as we were prepared for. they were GREAT.. like i said, better than the orientation ppl when we started out.. and they were disciplined too.. they even clean the benches when they dirtied it. they love their sch i would say.. through this small action of keeping the benches clean. and how they turned their heads knowing e hall would be used for other activities. love them for their everything..
n also its e first camp i facilitate tt i can be wif e grp for as long as i want. nv had tt. had been foodattach cum 1stintake attach for e orientation n end up not knowing threequarters of my campers. and when writing the notes for them, i had to read wat others wrote to know how each camper is like except for a few.. so YuZheng, i noe how u felt rly.. e feeling of who's who.. hah..
anyway,so PEANUTS u rawk! n not just so! all other NUTS uall rock too! continue to be so n im sure uall will end up as a great bonded council!

just 1 more paper to go!

2006-10-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

yes, finally its ending.. 1 more paper, 2 more days! jiayou!
ok so im here to blog about what? i dunno.. forgot.. overly distracted by msn i guess..but shall just blog freely as usual.. so if anyone gets confused, im sry.. coz im seriously just typing wat comes on mind..
so shall tok abt my msn topics..

topic1: my friend told me this lightbulb joke tt actually is a series.. it's just talking abt the jcs in singapore.. ok not all.. but q a handful tt ppl will most prob rmb.. but cant put it here coz it'll be rather offending for many.. its super generalising n of course not accurate depiction. n shall put e part on jj here since its obvious why lar.
Q: How many jjc students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.....
this one is rly not good enuff.. the ones on other schs are more effective.. this one, i rly dunno why its so.. our physics rly tt bad rep meh? n its too detailed le.. others are like "they prefer it darker" n "they are still using oil lamps".. some are rly q mean lar, while some is well, the reputation of the sch. yep.

ok, topic2: as my fren's nick says " break up season " oh well, its rather true. ive noticed.. everyone's having their own 'l' problems..ok not all.. but majority who has to deal wif such ard me has tt.. while some are in their bliss n sweetness(: anyway, yea, not just jj ppl, even sec de, or other jcs de, etc etc.. sigh.. there was once i was so troubled for all of them.. i mean while u r listening to another tell u his or her prob, u rmb the rest.. den get all troubled thinking of all of them. its probably the 'breakup season' coz its like end of the yr? ppl start early this yr or mid of this yr den err as time goes on, decide No. but not applicable to all lehs.. still.. ya, not rly my business lar.. just concerned..

ok, aft all e msn convos.. generally, recently have been catching up with some 'old' friends.. my closer sec frens.. even now. hah.. yep yep.. missing them.. though i dun really want to go bck to my secondary yrs.. unless i can relive them and make a difference.. but if i rly do so, im gonna change my life.. coz i wud moz prob not be in where i am now.. and not going thru this understanding of oneself.. den i wonder how my life would be.. would it be as my old ideal used to be? or would i end up preferring my jj life? but no matter wat, im v happy tt im in jj so i dun rly mind not changing my past.. although i may lose out on an impt part of my life right now as compared to others who had gd sec yrs, but im gonna have a brighter present (ie brighter on another part of my life) to fill up all e lost part of life. ok think ive repeated this idea many times.. yepyep.. but its wat i strive towards from now on.. my lifelong resolution i guess.. or at least for my 2 yrs in jj. (hopefully its not gonna become 3 yrs =X)

ok shud end here.. go slp tml study physics.. ^^ oh ya.. waiting for 'gong'!! come come!!! n OH YA! wish list! err, lazy do template.. so wish here lar.. MiLuBinG! (superband cd), 256 memory stick (of course i would love a 512, but 256 is seriously more than enuff for me.. zhi zu n shen qian^_^ ) , cd+radio player! (coz my beloved one spoil leT.T),... i think tts abt it.. cant rmb any other at e moment.. gong vcd? hah.. tts nt rly needed lar..hmm, any others? wish for everyone to have nice solutions in life bah(: n oh ya, all j2s to do well for A's, j1s to be able to promote^^ tts all. yes, go slp. its already 1.=.=

ending all

2006-09-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

like what many have said, after today's econs, it seemed like we r into holidays already. yet, the irony is tt econs is not of utmost importance. we have seriously not done any of our h2 subs.. but im rly feeling holiday-ish. as in all relieved after today's paper. but somewhere at the back of my mind, i myself noe it tt i still have a lot to catch up with my maths, chem n physics. but just cant get dwn to do it, much as i forced it on myself.
anyway, while i was rebelling against myself in studying, ive cleared some thoughts. its time to put a stop to any miseries. hopefully. *.* haha. okok. no lar. at least get ready safety net n fences. which reminds of of rivalry n excludability. sheesh. okok, econs over. ^^
so we are left with maths, chem, then physics. which reminds me, nobody answered my prev phy que! hah..mabbe its just coz i have only tt 'faithful blog reader' of mine. eh, sQuiD, why dont u answer my phy que then? heh.. okok, im being lame. probably too tired for having slept late for the whole wk.so i should stop my crap n slp soon.
so i asked myself some questions. n i tot, i noe i can stop. im tired of trying. also tired of shunning. im so done with all that. by ending all, i can continue with the route i set out in jj n maybe up ahead.

going CrAzY!

2006-09-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

promos is like one day away but the nearer i am to it, the more im not studying.. SHEESH! how? help.. partly coz i nv study wif my usual study grp bah.. =X jiamin, huiying, suwen, aiting, tommy, weihao, xiangyu, n sumtimes xinying, eric n yvonne.. where are uall?! arhh!! my only productive times are when im with all of u!
but my fault lar.. these few days nv sit wif uall oso.. sry.. neway, i wonder how many of u will actually see this.. but still, ya im sry.. felt lyk i ps-ed uall.. but isnt e canteen a nice place to study? (just tt it wun be complete w/o uall!) ok, first time im being so mushy..

so Y AM I NOT STUDYING?
feeling restless. i do n think everything else but my studies. n im looking at my phone. playing game. fiddling when i have nothing better to do w it.
im stressed. coz its nearing. when im stressed, i shun my work.. think n do everything else. n end up eating alot too T.T aiya.. tts abt it.. mabbe aft e exams, i'll be released from all this distractions.. even if im not, i'll have enuff energy n time to face them i hope. yepyyep.. we shall see how..

neway, no matter wat, im looking forward to go get SUPERBAND CD aft promos! hopefully it'll be good.. ^^ but still, even if i get e cd, no use! i cant play it since my darling Cd PlaYeR spoil le.. T.T T.T T.T
still, MILUBING 4EVA!